I’m feelin a lil blue today…

 My mother has been here visiting for the last 3 weeks.  I was looking so forward to her comin, ya kno? Made a few plans of things we could do.  I wanted to really show her a good time and how I was livin’. 

Things havent all been that great between me and her all of my 40-something years.  But since I have grown older (up), I appreciate my mom if nothing for the fact that she is my mom, and commands all the respect.  I try and give it to her…

Well things didnt turn out quite how I wanted it.  I thought Mom was gonna stay over here with me and kick it, and my nieces (one of them has a cute lil son!) would stay with me sister, who lives in Marietta GA.  They spendt most of the visit at my sister’s house, and I think I saw her maybe 3-4 days out of the 3 weeks!  Granted I had to work, but I think it had a lot to do with my sister wanting, I guess to be the center of attention.  It was mostly all about her being so tired that she “just didnt feel like” driving Mom over here.  The bia got a regular job, works just like everyone else, and I dont recall tellin you to lay down and have THREE kids.  But even granted all that, hello?-its like a special occasion or something?  It would not have killed her to get off her 300 pound ass and do something for somebody sometime…

Im not sure Mom wanted to even come, if I keep on thinkin on it. 

That is why I feel so blue.  I really wanted to see my mom; she had vacation time (she still works!), and it was my idea for her to make the trip.  I didnt get to spend that much time with her when she was here, and really they thought they were leaving today; I get off at five and ride the bus -for now-, and couldnt make it home before 7:00.  Last night, I guess, was my goodbye… 

Feel kinda cheated.

I dont know——–maybe Im trippin; but I thats how Im feelin this…